Surfed Out

I sit on my surf board
Waiting in the lineup
On the horizon is a wave
I start to paddle for the massive wave
I feel it pick me up and I pop up
Balancing on my board, gliding over the water
The fins cutting through the green of the ocean
I can smell fish in the distance
I can hear the screech of birds and the kids yelling
The lip is curling over
And the wave starts to break
I see a tombstone
Before I know it I nose dive
Submerged in the ice cold water
I can feel my wet-suit filling with water
There are waves crashing all around me
I pull my leash towards me
And paddle through the whitewash
Paddling over the greater force
Of the ocean, Never to be
Surfed Out

Hidden My Magnetic poem

Frantic whisper of a gorgeous boy
Smell of moonlight rain
Summer symphony of sun
Crushed beneath the shadows
Picturing the light
The music shines
A rose garden of diamonds
Yet to be harvested

I Have Seen Responses

I read You Can’t Defend Yourself which was written by Cheyenne Bailey. I think that this poem is about depression. The line “nails painted blacks” creates imagery of jet black nails. There is also alliteration in the line “I have pestered and poked until no one can bear it.” I think that in the first stanza the line “I have made people kill through my hurtful whisper” means that depression can lead people to kill themselves. In the next stanza every line starts with “I watch..” I think that she used this because it shows what depression sees, plus the repetition shows how often depression happens. In the next stanza I wonder why Cheyenne used the word “expressed.” I like how she brings up the idea that depression is unstoppable and that it knows what it is doing, personifying depression. 

In the fourth stanza, every line starts with “I’d rather...” I think that this shows how depression would anything but itself. I wonder why Cheyenne chose to use the words quicker, wind, dark, and truthful? What does it mean for depression to become quicker, and truthful? In the last stanza there is alliteration in the line “I will pester and poke at you” I think that this line means that depression can nag on you until you finally give. This stanza shows how some people can’t stop feeling like that and the depression just pulls them down until they can’t get up

The other poem I read is called Endless Shadows Hovering Over Deppression by Noa Riemann. I think that this poem is told in the point of view of sadness. The first line in this poem is “I have seen clouds for as long as i can remember” I think that this line shows the idea of time for an abstract noun such as sadness. This line gives imagery of sadness looking up at the sky only to see a blanket of clouds. In the next stanza she says

Trapped in this soulless figure

Craving happiness

Seeking light

Just a goal

Just a dream

I think that this stanza has a really good rhythm to it. She uses the words Trapped, Craving, and Seeking which all relate to trying to get what you want and need. I think that the line “I send my thoughts to light” shows how sadness would feel hoping that it could be a happy thing rather than something people dread.

Throughout the poem Noa compares sadness to clouds and rain. I really like the line “A maze engraved with bad memories” it shows imagery and it is a metaphor. The next line is “As hatred raps around me” I think that this is a clever play on words because in many rap songs the speak of sadness and hate. I think that this shows how people don’t like sadness. The line “Trying to cut through these ropes” gives me the imagery of confinement and a cage. In the next stanza the line “But instead I see endless mirrors behind my dark thoughts” creates imagery of an endless row of mirrors. I think that she chose this because mirrors reflect images so if sadness has dark thoughts it can see rows and rows of it. In the last stanza it denies that there is something. The last line “This feeling where only a smile can free me.” is really great. To me it means that although sadness can sometimes take over your body, if you just smile things could get better.

Braggin' Rap

I'm here to tell you about Greta Grace
Busting out the math all over the place
I got a 4.0 GPA and a beautiful face
All the other kids look to me to set the pace

Everyone knows me and my friends
Cause we're the ones setting the trends
I don't mean to offend
but my homework's done before the night ends

I may seem crazy
And I probably am
But I'm definitely not lazy
And I'm happy as a clam

I can play the guitar
So stuff your mean in a jar
I'm ready if you are
Cause I'm the real star

I can't really rhyme
But look we're out of time
Yo this is me
And I've got the key

Limericks

 The House of Gold

There once was a girl from Lold

Who had her home sold

She ran out of her house

Scared of a mouse

Only to find the house was made of gold

The Growing Finger

There once was a man whose finger would grow

The doctors tried everything they know

They tested his blood

It turned out to be mud

Sadly they could never stop the flow

The Llama named Bill

There once was a llama named Bill

He always sat on the window sill

Staring at the trees

Scared of the bees

Avoiding his job at the mill

Never Satisfied

I have seen many people jump

Their deepest dream finally come true

The human mind set to a cause, working on what they want

I have felt the way that they have felt

United with the souls that have done the same

But sadly knowing, the feeling won’t last

I have heard the cries of wishes come true

But I feel so deceiving as it won’t last

I send myself through cities and towns

To try to find the thing I've lost

Just when the search is over I lose it again

And another sadness stricken destination calls to me

Spread across the world like butter on toast

I try but fail, for I haven’t enough for the crust

I’d rather be like water seeping slowly through the world

Able to reach the smallest crevice

No person let down, No hide and seek

I’d rather be like fire, spread with the hint of flame

Once started unable to stop

I know that I am appreciated

Spread by the wind, their thoughts surround me

Like a bird I fly over them watching their emotions

The white light of deep satisfaction

I can not please all, for some are left with muddy brown disappointment

So a travel through turquoise oceans and emerald forest to help the most desperate

I say to myself that I will not fail

But haunting me like a ghost is the notion

That people may feel the darkness

Rather than fight the darkness, I spread the light

Hoping that others will know how I feel

But something deep inside me ask

Is it possible?

Living in Numbers Response

I read the Poem Living in Numbers by Claire Lee. Although it is a more modern poem I think that it speaks to people of many different ages. Living in Numbers is a list poem about how many times she has done a certain thing. It has 2 days and the numbers change when the day changes. The first two stanzas are on Sunday, August 22, 2010. This poem starts off with the line
Number of times I've woken up after
oversleeping and sprung out of bed like a ninja: 959
I think that this is interesting because the author broke up the sentence into two lines. I wonder why she did that? In this line there is also as simile comparing the way she got out of bed to a ninja. There is alliteration in the next line "Number of broken bones: 3."The line”Number of Scars, physical: 4; emotional: 947” show how people suffer and get through their difficulties. The author says how many Facebook friends she has, 744, and how many real friends she has, 9. I think that this shows what modern life is like, how people may be your friend  on Facebook but in real life you don’t talk to them. The last line on August 22, is "Number of things I know: 918,394" On Monday, August 23, 2010 the first line is
Number of times I've woken up after oversleeping and sprung out of bed like a ninja: 960
The thing that I find interesting is that unlike the first line it is not broken up into two lines. The thing that I love about this poem is that the numbers in the change when the day changes. I think that it shows how a day goes on and things change. You lose friends, you get new scars, you've laughed, you've cried, and you have gotten through it. I really like this poem, I think that the simplicity of it is great and I love the way that I can come up with a new meaning for it.

Haiku's

Ingnored
Forgotten about

Bursting through with the others 

The weeds are pulled

Fly

A bird flies above 

It glides into the water

flying in the liquid

Light

Kids jump in the water

Watermelon cut in bowl

Freedom for three months

Time
Tick tock goes the clock

Counting every second

Time seems to stand still

Dream Variations Response

In the poem Dream Variations by Langston Hughes there are two verses, the first verse is said in a way that makes it seem like it is a dream or wish whereas the second verse is reality. The line "To fling my arms wide" creates the imagery of a wide open meadow. In the poem there is a rhyme scheme of A,B,C,B,D,E,F,E,G. The line "To whirl and to dance" gives the reader a feeling of hope and longing. The last line of the first verse says "That is my dream" This shows that this is his dream and it is what he wants to be able to dance and be free. The second verse starts the same as the first verse. This verse is told in a more present tense. The line "Dance! Whirl! Whirl!" shows that the authors enthusiasm for his new freedom. In the lines
"Rest at pale evening...
A tall, slim tree..." the ellipses adds suspense for the next line "Night coming tenderly." The word "tenderly" creates an imagery of calmness and  contentedness. The line "Black like me" and "Dark like me" both show that the author embraces who he is as an individual.

It is...

Happiness is sunrise gold ocean on the horizon

Joy is yelling in the wind purple flowers at dawn

Quiet is static gray TV reception

Envy is gremlin green monster mucus

Fear is a stormy night sky blue shooting stars

Freedom is murder red friends working together

Thoughts are eggshell white people behind it all

Response to The Walrus and the Carpenter

The poem "The Walrus and the Carpenter" by Lewis Carroll is about a walrus and a carpenter going on a walk where they get oysters to join them in the end the walrus and the carpenter eat the oysters. The first verse describes the setting using the an alliteration of "The sun was shining on the sea." Throughout the whole poem it has a rhyming scheme of A, B, C, B, D, B. In the second verse Carroll personifies the moon, saying that the sun spoiled the fun by being light even when it was night. In the third verse wet is compared to wet in the line " The sea was wet as wet could be" Throughout the poem each line starts with a capital letter. In the lines
If seven mads with seven mops
Swept it for half a year,
Do you suppose," the Walrus said,
"They could get it clear?"
In this line the walrus is questioning things that may seem crazy. When the walrus and the carpenter invited the oysters on their walk the older oyster declined because he knew what was happening. but the younger ones followed them eager with no idea what was going on. Like the moon Carroll also personified the oysters saying
Their coats were brushed, their faces washed,
Their shoes were clean and neat--
Another thing I thought was interesting is that Carroll used two hyphens in stead of one. In the next verse there is repetition when it says "And more, and , and more--" Frothy gives you imagery of what the shore looked like. "And waited in a row" gives you the feeling of the oysters lining up for their death. In the next verse there is alliteration in the line "Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax" The walrus act really friendly towards the oysters talking about eating bread with vinegar, salt and pepper. When the oysters bring up the idea that they might eat them the walrus changes the subject and the carpenter asks for more food. The carpenter keeps on changing the subject and the walrus feels guilty for eating them but in the end of the poem the need for nutrients won over the guilt so the oysters were eaten.

New Vs. Old

Baby	Vs.	Grandmother
Baby teeth	Vs.	Grown-up teeth
Milk	Vs.	Cheese
Egg	Vs.	Hen
Computer	Vs.	Typewriter
Iphone	Vs.	flip phone
Ipod touch	Vs.	MP3 player
Email	Vs.	Postage
Printer paper	Vs.	Egg carton
Shopping mall	Vs.	Thrift store
Grass sprout	Vs.	Redwood tree
Obama	Vs.	George Washington
Quill	Vs.	Pen
Modern	Vs.	Antique
Present	Vs.	History
U.S.A.	Vs.	The Universe

What to Do if You Can't Find your Phone

What If...

Your phone was lost in a pile of possessions

I would call it with hope

that someone would hear the resonating ring

only to find

my phone is dead

 I would search the house

looking in every nook and cranny

like a spy stalking its subject

When that fails

I nonchalantly ask my family for help

hoping to sound like I am not

thinking of the catastrophic things that could have happened

I search high and low

only to find

my phone 

is exactly where I looked first

Ender's Game Anticipation Guide Revisitation

Lying is justifiable if it's for the greater good.
After reading Ender's game I would rank this as a 2. In the book Graff and all the adults lie to Ender. When Ender realizes he'd been lied to, he was really depressed. In the book lying did help them defeat the buggers but it is my personal opinion that big lies are never good. What if buggers were actually really good creatures that would someday do something great, and because Ender was lied to he killed them. In extreme cases lying may be okay and it may work out for the people that are lying but it might not be for the greater good of all the creatures in the universe.
Sometimes violence is the only way to solve a problem.
I would keep the same ranking because I don't think that violence is the answer. In Ender's Game Ender is forced to be violent when the boys attack him at Battle School, that really wasn't the solution to the problem but if he hadn't have been violent then who knows what would have happened. After Ender kills all the buggers he feels really bad. Ender wished he hadn't have killed them. Ender was controlled and played into participating in the annihilation of the buggers. I don't think that war was the only way to solve that problem.
 It is okay to kill someone in self-defense.
I think that I would rank this as a 3 because I feel that if the death can be avoided then you shouldn't kill them. However in dire situations it would be okay. I could see it being okay if you didn't mean to kill them. On page 211 Ender unintentionally killed Bonzo after he tried to kill Ender. The teachers and most officials agreed that it was an act of self defense. When Ender killed Stilson on page 7 the adults concluded the same thing. In Ender's game they send the message that it is okay to kill someone in self-defense but I think that this applies as a last case scenario.
Words are stronger than fists.
Now that I have read the book I would give this a 4 this because not only is it still my personal belief but it is also proven in Ender's Game. Valentine and Peter have a lot of power being Demosthenes and Locke while they use their words to control the world. In fact Valentine and Peter had gained so much strength from their words that they both had the power to get Ender back or keep him away from Earth. Valentines words of accusation kept Ender from coming back and being taken advantage by Peter. Although fist are useful in some situation I still think that words are stronger. However when Bonzo tried to beat up Ender it had come to a point where words would not really help the situation. 
Bullies hurt others because they have low self esteem.
I think that I would rate this as a 4 because after reading Ender's game I realize that some people can bully other unintentionally. Plus some people make think that it is just the right thing to do. When Ender got in a fight with Bonzo, Bonzo had low self esteem because his army had lost to the dragon army and Ender saying that he didn't have honor by picking on Ender. I think that in some cases this ins't true, the human race could be considered bullies by going to war with the buggers, maybe we do have low self esteem always trying to have what we can't and trying to be what we aren't. To some degree the human race had low self esteem because they felt like they weren't they only intelligent life form. 
Only the best and brightest students should receive the best education to become a nation's leaders.
I still strongly disagree with this, I think that anyone can become a leader if they have the right education. In Ender's game they agree with this sending the smartest kids to battle school. If the kids pass the mental test they get to go and learn to be a soldier perhaps even a commander. I think that that their idea that only the best students receive the best education is really not fair to all the other students who have just as much potential to become great leaders. For example Peter and Valentine weren't accepted to battle school but they still became important leader on Earth and other planets. Those best and brightest students are just the students that have the most potential to become killing machines obeying every order given without thinking for themselves. Except for a select few, Petra Dink, Alai, most of the students at battle school just follow orders instead of thinking for themselves.
Revenge is never justified.
I think that I would give this a 3 now because sometimes it could be necessary to get someone back but in the end revenge only leads to more revenge. Although revenge is not the first answer I would go to it is a possible option. In Ender's Game the human race seeks revenge from the first and second invasion. Although that didn't really work out if they hadn't have launched the third invasion, the human race would resent the buggers and always think of them as bad. I think that revenge can be justified but it should be avoided.
Crying is evidence of weakness.
To be honest I think that I would raise this ranking to a 2. It seems mean to say that crying is weak but in some situations crying can be overly dramatically  Although I think that everyone should cry if they need to, crying too much is really annoying and people should be able to hold in their emotions in really public places. That doesn't mean that if you cry you are weak, all I am saying is that crying when nothing happened is weak. In Ender's Game Ender thinks that crying will make him weak but all the other boys cry.
Any action is acceptable in war.
I still agree with my previous thoughts on this statement. No you have to stay true to your morals and treat others how you want to be treated. In war most of the actions you make are based on one core idea, winning, so some people will do anything they can to win. Some things that they do may be something that isn't morally right. In Ender's Game Ender killed the planet in the stimulation and after he killed all the buggers he regretted his actions in war. I might be totally wrong here but I think that in war the human race should look out for each other even if the other people are different.
Teenagers need discipline and rules because they can't control themselves.
After reading Ender's game I would rate this as a two because I think that a lot of teenagers can handle themselves. For example I wouldn't have a problem if I didn't have any rules. I think that in the situation of no rules some teenagers would just make up new rules. On the other hand other teenagers would go crazy without rules. In Ender's Game the kids made their own rules. The kids at Battle school were able to run an orderly battle without much help from the teachers. Yes sometimes rules are useful but in most situations I think that teenagers can rise to the challenge.
Only though personal sacrifice can someone create positive change.
Now that I have red Ender's Game I would rate this as a 3 because there is other ways to create positive change, but sometimes change can come from personal sacrifice. If that was the only way then people would have to give up a lot. In Ender's Game all the kids going to battle school had to give up their childhood to save the world. In chapter 13 Ender sacrifices his life on Earth to go to commander school and help defend Earth.
Generating compassion for your enemies is the only way to create peace. 
I agree with everything I said originally. You have to understand and generate compassion for your enemies to create peace. Understanding your enemy and having compassion for them lets you see their situation from another perspective. It can help you keep peace. I think that this is proven in Ender's Game when Ender finally learns about the buggers and comes to peace with them. By going into Ender's mind the buggers were able to create compassion for Ender and therefore forgiving him for killing the buggers. 

Ode to my pencil

Oh my pencil

How you help me so

What would I do 

without your beautiful grey lead?

Made of wood

with brilliant yellow paint

You help me write

or doodle when I'm bored

I fix you when you break

If I make a mistake 

your smooth pink eraser 

will clear them away

No pen compares 

to your versatile use

like shoes my pencil 

helps me everyday

What would I do?

Oh my pencil

Orson Scott Card Article Response

     In the article on  The Hollywood Reporter I learned about Orson Scott Card's, Author of Ender's Game, Opinion on gay marriage. Card wrote Ender's game which is a futuristic science fiction novel where the human race has to go to war with an alien race. In the article Card says that "homosexuality is a 'reproductive dysfunction' born of choice." People may be hesitant to support his works because of his opinion. With the Ender's Game movie coming out next November, the movie company wants to separate themselves from Card's opinion. They say that Card's opinion doesn't reflect in the book or the movie.I think that this is an interesting dilemma, His book is really good but buying it means that you are supporting his views. Everyone is open to their opinion but nonetheless, people will judge him and his book. This article doesn't effect my thoughts on the book but it does make wary as to whether or not I want buy the next book. Personally I think that we shouldn't judge Card's book and Card himself together. His work of art stands alone as a great book.
     I don't think that Mr. Vack should take Ender's game off the curriculum.  I think that reading this book opens the door for students to discuss if the author really is connected directly with the book. I think that Mr.  Vack could do responses in the future and keep learning from this article. I think that the movie company doesn't want Card's view on gay marriage to effect the way people see the movie. The movie company feels that Card would say something to upset the fans of the book and the movie if he is put in the limelight too much. I think that the company is right to feel this way. Although I don't attach Card to Ender's Game other may and that could make him and his book less popular.

Ender's Game Questions Chapters 12 - 15

Chapter 12 – Bonzo
1. Bonzo was really mad after the Dragon army beat the Salamander army. Ender seemed to be an all around better soldier than him and Bonzo didn't want to accept it. While Ender was in the Salamander army he didn't get to do anything and Bonzo treated him badly but despite that Ender was on the top of the ranks. Ender also offended his honor by saying that his father would be proud of him for beating up someone at such a disadvantage  To get back at Ender for beating his army Bonzo got in a fight with Ender, hoping to kill him. As we learn later Ender actually ends up killing Bonzo.
2. When Ender lived on Earth Stilson was the boy that bullied him. After he got his monitor off Stilson tried to make fun of him. Like the situation with Bonzo it came down to fighting. Ender beat Stilson up and killed him. I think that Ender was thinking of him because Ender had to fight with Bonzo just like he had to fight with Stilson.
3. Ender thinks that the teachers need him and they won't let anything bad happen. On page 206 Ender thought "They'll [the teachers] push me as hard as they can in a game, but outside the game they'll keep me safe." Ender expects the teachers to help him because they need him to defeat the buggers but Graff says that it will make him stronger to have to deal with bullies. After his fight with Bonzo Ender knew the the teachers would never help him. Ender was wrong for expecting help. 
4. When I read about the fights I didn't think that Bonzo or Stilson were dead. It really surprised when I learned that. At the end of the chapter you read people talking about the deaths and saying that Ender is scary. When the fight between Ender and Bonzo was done the book said that "Bonzo collapsed, fell to the side, and sprawled directly under a spay of steaming water from the shower." Think back on it it makes sense that they are dead.
5. Yes he was justified, they picked on him first. I think that that could have been avoided if the teachers stepped in. Major Anderson wanted to help Ender but Graff told him not to. I think that they didn't tell Ender about the deaths because he would be depressed and would think of himself as a killer. After Ender killed killed all the Buggers he was really sad because he didn't mean to kill all the buggers. If Ender had found out he killed them he wouldn't want to help defeat the buggers.

Chapter 13 – Valentine
1.I think that this quote means that if you pretend to be someone or something long enough you start to act and think like that person. In the book Valentine pretended to be Demosthenes and after a while she started to think like Demosthenes. This also happened to Ender when he became commander, he started acting more tough and more in charge. I think that this happens not only in the book but in real life, for example, if I were to talk in a British accent for a long time it would be hard for me to stop talking like that because I became the person I was pretending to be.
2. Yes and no, it could be helpful to have an instinct that told you to kill. However in most cases an instinct to kill could just lead to more trouble in death. In the End of the book Ender's instinct told him to destroy the bugger planet. That had some "good" effects and some bad effects. In the book the battles at Battle school were survival of the fittest. Whichever army was the most trained and ready won but in the end the battles didn't really matter, they were just a game to keep the kids busy.
3. Ender and Valentine discuss what the Battle School really is. He tells Valentine that the whole thing is just a game and they are the puppets on the string. Ender says that he finally understands the buggers but he hates them and he loves them. I think that Ender is fed up with the games that they he has been playing and he has conflicting thoughts telling him to help mankind or do what is morally right.
4. At the beginning of the book Peter was murderous and Ender was innocent and helpless. As I read further Ender became more violent and Peter mellowed down, taking the role of Locke, his complete opposite. On page 236 Ender tells how he thinks that he is now the person who has power. Valentine was helping Peter with his plan to control the world and she didn't get to see Ender as much. Valentine was backing Peter up like she used to do for Ender. Valentine still loves Ender and wants the best for him. I think that Valentine is mad at herself for going along with Peter's plan.
5.I think that the outcome would not have been the same. The Buggers had to understand the humans as the humans had to understand the Buggers. The Bugger war helped Ender and the Bugger cocoon communicate. I think that Ender will help start a new race of Buggers. On the other hand the war had a lot of damage and they might have found a way to understand each other. I think that the war could have been stopped but the outcomes worked out for the humans but not the Buggers.

Chapter 14 – Ender’s Teacher
1. Ender hated the way that the the tunnel floors sloped downwards. It gave him a feeling of falling. Another think that Ender didn't like about Eros was the way that the rooms seemed to be ill-proportioned, with the ceilings to low for the width and the tunnels too narrow. He was also disturbed by the amount of people, especially stranger, there were. He found out they were Bugger hives when Mazer was teaching Ender about the Buggers. It made a lot of sense because it never felt like a human place.
2.In the past all the teachers didn't teach Ender as much as learn from him. Graff, himself said that Ender was smarter than he would ever be. Mazer tought Ender things that he didn't know. For example Mazer taught Ender about how the Buggers lived. Mazer gave Ender the Challenge that Ender needed to continue his "studies." On page 264 Mazer says "One is never too old to be a student of the enemy. I have learned from the buggers. You will learn from me." This shows that Ender will learn what Mazer has learned from the Buggers.
3. Why had Mazer been dishonest with Ender? Do you think Ender could have
handled the truth?
I think that Mazer lies to Ender because it doesn't put as much pressure on him. Mazer has to be dishonest because Ender will have fun (kinda) working with his friends. Also if he doesn't know he may be more willing to do extreme but necessary things like he did when he blew up the Bugger planet.  I don't think that Ender could have handled the truth. He would feel a lot of pressure and he wouldn't want to kill all the Buggers. When the war ended Ender was sad and depressed that he had killed all those buggers.
4. Yes they did push the children too far. Ender pushed Petra so far that she was too tired to be used in the battles. While Ender was doing the battles he didn't get any sleep and he was always tired. After a long time of working himself too much he got sick. In the end it was worth it and the children did get better but I think that the Bugger war left some physiological effect on the kids.
5. I don't think that the genocide of the Buggers is justified. The buggers were their own race and they had acquired customs. The golden rule is to treat others how you want to be treated. I am sure that the human race would not like to be annihilated. I think that the genocide of the buggers was in fact inevitable. It may not have happened then but some time the buggers and the human race would be annihilated.

Chapter 15 – Speaker for the Dead
1. I think that Ender would agree with this statement. He was given the roll of the hero that would save the human race and he did his best. He learned about the buggers and lead the humans to victory. Ender didn't really have control over his life, he played along with Graff's games. Graff cared for Ender and forced him to play and do his best at that role. 
2. Ender had done a lot of bad things in his life. For example he killed the buggers, hurt the boys at Battle School, Killing Bonzo and Stilson. I think that Ender thought that one more crime added on to his many other didn't make much of a difference. I think that Ender didn't feel as bad about Stilson and Bonzo's death because they deserved it whereas the buggers didn't do anything to Ender.
3. Valentine new that if Ender went back to earth Peter would take that opportunity to reveal himself making him be even more powerful. Valentine was trying to help Ender live a better life. If Ender came back to earth Peter would control the world even more. By not being able to go back to earth Ender had the opportunity to start another life. He is able to undo his wrongs. In the end it was really for his own good that Valentine made it that Ender couldn't return to earth.
4. The thing that is ironic about Peter saving million of lives is that in the beginning of the book Peter murdered animals and he hurt Ender. After being mean the tables had turned and he was now saving people's life. I think that Peter had other reason for making the Locke treaty nonetheless he did end the war on Earth.
5. After Ender found the cocoon of the new hive queen Ender learned the story about the buggers and he also learned that the hive queen had forgiven Ender. Ender learned all this information by talking reading the bugger's mind, he thought "...How can I see these things, like memories in my own mind."
6. Ender uses the pseudonym "Speaker for the Dead" because when he found the hive queen cocoon he learned about the dead race. After telling people the bugger's story Ender was kind of like the speaker of the dead buggers. His book is the story about the history of the buggers. I think that he wants to be known for his memory of life rather than death.